Is anyone still here??

Seems like I've been away from my blog for a very long time even though my last update was just 5 days ago...

I feel like a new born baby who just arrived to this colorful world and who was just started to explore the world.

There's this one good day 2 months ago, I told myself that I'm gonna continue dancing and I want to see some result from it, which means, not just saying but doing it! Not just that, but the most important thing is to push my online store to another level! I love fashion and love seeing people receive and love the items that they bought from Twenty3 happily! 

I chose my job over everything in the past 1.5 years. It's a give & take thingy. I need more knowledge and experience to find out what I want to do in future, who I want to be in future and help to create the future that I wanted. 

And if you're wondering like how my close friends did, "why is Sherlyn so active lately?"

The answer is yes, it's like what ya thinking now. I quit my job.

I quit my job without another job on hand...

I quit my job without proving that I'm a superb dance who had won championship in those colorful competition..

I quit my job without a stable singing career like those professional singers who were booked up till next year for shows and performances...

I quit my job without having a business which can feed me the rest of the months with no worries.

Honestly, it scared the shit hell of me! 

Quitting a job also means giving up a very good salary income.

There's a lot of uncertainties.

Quitting my job is not something that came to my mind lie just all of a sudden.

I've been thinking about it long time ago.

I have had a good salary income. good experiences amd good knowledge from my job...

but i'm not satisfied...

Not satisfied doesn't mean that I'm not happy or I hate my job, my office or the people around me. 

I love them, I love Groupon! They're the most awesome people that I've met throughout my life! My sales team, my bosses! My awesome office with ping pong table and bean bags where I can just hide inside whenever I need a power nap.

My job was really challenging and they're something that I NEVER thought that I could achieve!

I've achieved pretty good results and everything were perfect. There's only a thing that is missing...my soul...

I can't feel myself...I can't feel the achievements! I might be happy on that day itself, when i achieved something but I would feel the same again in the rest of the days. 

I started questioning myself...IS this something that I really want? More and more doubts going on.

It's my first job and I couldn't see anything good that wil happen if I quit my job cz it was such an awesome job.

People asked, if this is such an awesome job....why did you choose to quit? You can still do all those things while working right?

The answer is No. I can't do anything aside from focusing on my job. 

I was a leader and I needed ultra focus on my job. Ensure the team is performing well, everybody is happy working, company's goal achieved and think of more and more great ideas to bring the team to the next level. MY responsibility was kinda heavy. I'm still singing and operating my online store when it first started. But everything just gone like that cz I can't focus and I'm just too tired every single day when I got home.

 

After months and months, I realized that I can't do this anymore. I want to explore the world! I need more new challenges and I want to be excited about my life and my future. One of my BFF colleague told me that, if you can do so well in something that you don't really like, you can surely do well in the things that you like! 

But I'm scared! The only thing about me is that I don't believe in myself. 

There're countless nights that I can't sleep because of this. 

Until there's one day my dad called me all of the sudden saying that he needs to talk to me seriously and it was about my dream.

You will not do it when you're old and when you have a lot of commitment. Go for your dreams he said.

I was touched and I cried heavily deep down in my heart. 

I want to be an entreprenuer and I love performing! And looking on what I'm doing right now, I feel that it's time for me to move to another stage.

Bf had been really supportive all the time. I don't think I can go through this crazy decision makeing process without him.

Althogh bf and the parents were very supportive..I don't have the courage to do it still.

Until there's this one day, I don't know where this 20s courage came from, I spoke to my boss that I'm resigning.

I was so brave until I couldn't recognize myself. 

He asked, what you gonna do then? you don't have a job yet. how?

My answer was : When there's a will, there's a way. ----> WALAO EH I THINK I SHOCKED MYSELF!! I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WILL COME UP WITH THIS ANSWER AND YES, THAT'S WHAT I'M THINKING THAT TIME!

And that's it. My ended up my working life and I'm here now to go after my dreams! 

If you follow my blog consistent enough LOL, you would've already know what i'm up to.

An entreprenuer, A singer & A dancer. That's my life now and that's the life that I wanted for so long!!!!

It's hard to juggle so many things at one go especially everything is still at the very beginning stage.

But I have faith in myself for the first time throughout my 25 years of living, I can do it. 

The only important thing that I need to remember now is "DO NOT GIVE UP! DON'T YOU EVER THINK OF GIVING UP SHERLYN TAN!"

I told myself over and over again! I'm still scared and there're a few nights that i broke down doubting myself. 

It's normal and the most important is how to get myself up after each break downs. I can't just sit down there and cry cz it's not gonna help me to achieve my dreams. 

I'm super thankful to my customers from Twenty3, my teachers from my dance schools, Talent Hub & Viva Vertical, and one of my colleague who gave me the chance to sing in a wedding function for the very first time! And also, everyone in Groupon whom I spent the most of my time in the past 1.5 years together, growing and learning together!

I need to keep going! I know I can do it! I just need to keep going no matter how hard the journey is...I'm just need to work my ass out to reach out the things that I want to achieve. 

 

 

 

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  • Guest
  • Hey! I wonder if you could reveal the range of salary as a sales team leader who works in Groupon?
  • Sorry ya it's private and confidential.

    Sherlyn 於 2012/11/19 13:13 回覆

  • Ivan Cheng
  • Good luck with your future endeavours Sherlyn, good luck and work hard towards your dream!
  • Thanks Ivan!

    Sherlyn 於 2012/11/19 13:13 回覆

  • jess
  • Hey Sherlyn, this post of urs is definitely inspirational.
    Really admire ur courage to make such an important decision.
    Since knowing u in MMU (btw,I'm the Jess from MMU if you can rmb. lol), I can really see your determination in doing what you want and like in life.
    I can still hear ur voice ringing in my head esp 情伤。 hahaah!!!

    Anyway, would like to leave a word of encouragement, GO FOR UR DREAMS babe! I'm sure u'll find your real life and soul someday. God bless :D

    btw, it'll still tough to make fishtail braid. :( my fingers were the one twisting instead of my hair. lols!
  • Thanks Jess! Omg u still remember 情伤I'm so touched!!!! Pls pm me on my FB I wan to know you more!!!! :) search : Sherlyn 陈慧琳 ;)

    Sherlyn 於 2012/11/22 12:02 回覆

  • don
  • yo.. i am still reading one. but past few days is toooooo stresses to even write a comment.
    u r very positive person lo. and positive person can always go veryyyy far one.
    ei.. if one day, u become a popular singer like example jolin like that, pls remember there was a reader name don wtf *wave hand!
    and reserve ticket with promotion price coz if too expensive i will go buy pirated instead =..=
    thanks in advance ah.. i have no idea why i so thick skin also. lol
  • Loll u very cute la. If I got that day I ll give u for free la wtf hehehe

    Sherlyn 於 2012/11/22 12:00 回覆

  • momo
  • *like* you give me some deep thoughts about it - work and dream and future. been working for almost 4 years and I always coward toward what I really want. will find some time to think through it.

    add oil there! can really see you change and work hard to achieve your dream. aza aza fighting!
  • Thanks Momo for the encouragement! It's not an easy decision but I know I will not be able to do it when I'm in my comfort zone and when I have more and more commitments to be taken care of. Thanks and I hope you will go after your dream too!

    Sherlyn 於 2012/11/22 22:59 回覆

  • Joey Wong
  • I've been reading your blog for quite a while (ok lah, not that long, since your working holiday posts) and have never commented (But I took a pic with you once hehe)
    It came as a surprise when I saw this post, but when I read 'till the end, I fully understood your decision.

    I'm glad you took that leap of faith. We need to get out of our comfort zones in order to discover ourselves. I have had some major decisions to make in my life (some) involving moving countries and I'm glad to say that even though it may seem scary at first, the excitement quickly took over when I sat on the plane. For you, it could be a metaphorical plane, but I'm sure you're already excited (albeit nervous) about what awaits. Trust me, if you do what your heart says, things will only turn out well :)
    Go for your dreams, girl!
  • Thanks Joey for your encouragement! N yes! I'm super excited actually! Although there're quite a few times where I broke down and cry because of the fear of uncertainty. But I know there's no turning back. I must continue my journey with positive thinking and attitude. I hope I will succeed one day too! Just like u! :)

    Sherlyn 於 2012/11/26 14:10 回覆

  • hi_bye
  • goodluck. i think if you continue the process although not knowing what exactly how have all these experiences had came together. you will somehow find something you desired. to you, you may not see everything. to me a passby-er, ii would like to wish you all the best and hope the next time if i ever drop by again. i see something amazing again. :)

    believe yourself. you have got great supports from everywhere.
  • Hi, thanks for the encouragement. I will try my best and never give up!

    Sherlyn 於 2012/12/06 08:56 回覆

  • Xiao Ying
  • When there's a will, there's a way --------> gosh I like this!
    the routine normally will go like this: when you start to believe you can do it, there is when people trust you can.

    All the best! =)