Is anyone still here??

Seems like I've been away from my blog for a very long time even though my last update was just 5 days ago...

I feel like a new born baby who just arrived to this colorful world and who was just started to explore the world.

There's this one good day 2 months ago, I told myself that I'm gonna continue dancing and I want to see some result from it, which means, not just saying but doing it! Not just that, but the most important thing is to push my online store to another level! I love fashion and love seeing people receive and love the items that they bought from Twenty3 happily! 

I chose my job over everything in the past 1.5 years. It's a give & take thingy. I need more knowledge and experience to find out what I want to do in future, who I want to be in future and help to create the future that I wanted. 

And if you're wondering like how my close friends did, "why is Sherlyn so active lately?"

The answer is yes, it's like what ya thinking now. I quit my job.

I quit my job without another job on hand...

I quit my job without proving that I'm a superb dance who had won championship in those colorful competition..

I quit my job without a stable singing career like those professional singers who were booked up till next year for shows and performances...

I quit my job without having a business which can feed me the rest of the months with no worries.

Honestly, it scared the shit hell of me! 

Quitting a job also means giving up a very good salary income.

There's a lot of uncertainties.

Quitting my job is not something that came to my mind lie just all of a sudden.

I've been thinking about it long time ago.

I have had a good salary income. good experiences amd good knowledge from my job...

but i'm not satisfied...

Not satisfied doesn't mean that I'm not happy or I hate my job, my office or the people around me. 

I love them, I love Groupon! They're the most awesome people that I've met throughout my life! My sales team, my bosses! My awesome office with ping pong table and bean bags where I can just hide inside whenever I need a power nap.

My job was really challenging and they're something that I NEVER thought that I could achieve!

I've achieved pretty good results and everything were perfect. There's only a thing that is missing...my soul...

I can't feel myself...I can't feel the achievements! I might be happy on that day itself, when i achieved something but I would feel the same again in the rest of the days. 

I started questioning myself...IS this something that I really want? More and more doubts going on.

It's my first job and I couldn't see anything good that wil happen if I quit my job cz it was such an awesome job.

People asked, if this is such an awesome job....why did you choose to quit? You can still do all those things while working right?

The answer is No. I can't do anything aside from focusing on my job. 

I was a leader and I needed ultra focus on my job. Ensure the team is performing well, everybody is happy working, company's goal achieved and think of more and more great ideas to bring the team to the next level. MY responsibility was kinda heavy. I'm still singing and operating my online store when it first started. But everything just gone like that cz I can't focus and I'm just too tired every single day when I got home.

 

After months and months, I realized that I can't do this anymore. I want to explore the world! I need more new challenges and I want to be excited about my life and my future. One of my BFF colleague told me that, if you can do so well in something that you don't really like, you can surely do well in the things that you like! 

But I'm scared! The only thing about me is that I don't believe in myself. 

There're countless nights that I can't sleep because of this. 

Until there's one day my dad called me all of the sudden saying that he needs to talk to me seriously and it was about my dream.

You will not do it when you're old and when you have a lot of commitment. Go for your dreams he said.

I was touched and I cried heavily deep down in my heart. 

I want to be an entreprenuer and I love performing! And looking on what I'm doing right now, I feel that it's time for me to move to another stage.

Bf had been really supportive all the time. I don't think I can go through this crazy decision makeing process without him.

Althogh bf and the parents were very supportive..I don't have the courage to do it still.

Until there's this one day, I don't know where this 20s courage came from, I spoke to my boss that I'm resigning.

I was so brave until I couldn't recognize myself. 

He asked, what you gonna do then? you don't have a job yet. how?

My answer was : When there's a will, there's a way. ----> WALAO EH I THINK I SHOCKED MYSELF!! I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WILL COME UP WITH THIS ANSWER AND YES, THAT'S WHAT I'M THINKING THAT TIME!

And that's it. My ended up my working life and I'm here now to go after my dreams! 

If you follow my blog consistent enough LOL, you would've already know what i'm up to.

An entreprenuer, A singer & A dancer. That's my life now and that's the life that I wanted for so long!!!!

It's hard to juggle so many things at one go especially everything is still at the very beginning stage.

But I have faith in myself for the first time throughout my 25 years of living, I can do it. 

The only important thing that I need to remember now is "DO NOT GIVE UP! DON'T YOU EVER THINK OF GIVING UP SHERLYN TAN!"

I told myself over and over again! I'm still scared and there're a few nights that i broke down doubting myself. 

It's normal and the most important is how to get myself up after each break downs. I can't just sit down there and cry cz it's not gonna help me to achieve my dreams. 

I'm super thankful to my customers from Twenty3, my teachers from my dance schools, Talent Hub & Viva Vertical, and one of my colleague who gave me the chance to sing in a wedding function for the very first time! And also, everyone in Groupon whom I spent the most of my time in the past 1.5 years together, growing and learning together!

I need to keep going! I know I can do it! I just need to keep going no matter how hard the journey is...I'm just need to work my ass out to reach out the things that I want to achieve. 

 

 

 

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